It's the second week of sch le...time realli flies...now in library..coz my printer ink finished le..so came to sch to print some stuff...Woke up extra early today. Perhaps waking up earli is good, wont be worried dat i cant get to slp at nite. Ytd, went to Kovan Heartland mall, to book piano room for practice. AFter which, took bus down to Igard..but to my dismay,i overslept and ended up taking another bus. Mandy was there..hee..missed them..n somehow, what she has said was rite..i m rather emotionally attached there..although i have worked there for a short period of six weeks only. This realli make me wonder why..is there another reason i m gg back..haiz..dun wanna think so much..anyway,tink so much oso no use. Haha..i have learn to work smart..that is to be ignorant, for ignorant is a blessing..haha..

Hee...ytd had my dim sum buffet wif my beloved mushrooms...but i tink the standard there drop liao..coz sometimes, the food is cold when it arrived. So ytd, when one of the waitress told us to finish up the last piece of fried shrimp dumpling, we said that it's cold, so dun want le...then end up, ling took a chopstick...and take the prawn out to eat...haha..i was like...-.-""...then after which, i wanted to go buy printer ink de..but ended up, i forgot what is my printer model..blur me. So after which, stella went jb wif her mummy, dayne and ling went to east side..me went back to Igard. Miss lela and mandy..haha..so stayed there to help out here and there..then chat chat abit lo...then kept thinking whether wanna go bbq..but in the end, decided not to..then went home. Erm..dunno why leh..but feeling a bit gloommy ytd nite..perhaps becoz of the rainy weather? Haiz..dunno bah..somehow, i tink i m falling into a pit again..shucks...

Actualyl thinking back, this week has been a stressful week ba..i have decided on things i shouldnt have..i have decided to quit syco. I think i have lost my passion for sheng. And i realli question myself...where was the passion when i painstakingly practise for the audition, where was the love for the instrument which i used to have???? Perhaps i somehow realised that CO cant be a career for me and decided to give up...it's not the best alternative..but i think i will have to give up CO one day, either sooner or later ba..But somehow or rather, i feel guilty, for letting the people there down by quitting half way..and anyway, shurong havent replied my email either. Haiz..And piano lessons have been rather stressful..coz i tink i m a scardy cat bah..dunno why so scared of that stupid diploma exam. I have passed the previous piano exams without fail, yet now facing my last exam, i feel a sense of fear, something which i have nv experienced before...god..help me..

Time realli flies...sch started le..lemme c how's this week..erm..actually quite lazy to describe..for more info, just refer to dayne or weiling's blog. Haha..but ytd..had clinic orientation and dayne fell aslp while i was doing refraction...sobz..me not pretty rite, that's why u slept. Bt i suppose she almost every day go dating mah..so will be more drained..unlike me, nobody wanna date me..haha..Went out wif colleague ytd after class. Her kids so cute!!!! OMg, i wanna have kids after i get married..hee...Then today, havin dim sum wif my beloved mushrooms...so decided to skip breakfast, just in case i get full when it's time for lunch..then gg down to IGard to pei my colleague ba..dun tink gg to bbq tonite..coz of some personal matters. Any way, kai xian..happy bdae... :D

As i m sitting down here, lots of things are running thru my mind. I can stil remember five weeks ago, i was oso sitting here, playing computer games, looking forward to the start of attachment. But good things nv last long...now is already the sixth week of attachment le, time realli flies, and how i hope i will be able to stay longer and learn. Thru this five weeks, i have seen things which i dun wish to, hear things i dun like, but somehow, i believe that it is god who put me in this shop. And indeed, ard a year back, i have had dreams of working in an optical shop..and that day, while i was doing some cleaning up in the shop, i suddenly remember the dream again, so real...but attachment ending soon, how sad..haiz..hope to go back there to work as part time..but mr yap nv ask leh. C how bah..if till the last day, he nv ask, then i tink too bad le lo...shall drop by to see my colleagues when i m free lo..but i tink i will realli miss them. Especially mr yap bah..coz i have realli learnt alot thru him. Although i always grumbled about him giving me assignments to do, esp assignment which i have yet to learn about, such as CJD, multifocal cl etc...but i slowly realised that it's thru these assignments, that set my mind thinking. And when he sends me home, he will oso test me about those optics stuff or patho thingy..and it realli got me so curious that i wil go back check out the questions he asked. No matter what happens, i shall believe that god is in charge..and i will pray earnestly that i can go back there and work part time..haha..enjoy teaching patients how to wear contact lens. Erm..today, went for church service. It's realli a special one, a sermon thru music...the preacher realli plays his instrument well, he played the acrustic guitar and classic guitar then the harp..but it's not about his skills, but how his music realli touched me. I guess i got to agree wif him that playing whatever instrument is not difficult, as long as god's annointing is in u....and u noe what? These few days, though i m tired, but i realli feel energetic when i practised piano, even after standing in the shop for at least 6 hours..haha..praise god. Hmmm..diploma exam is on 9th may..god, i realli wanna do well for it, help me...amen..

Hee...anyone miss me?? I suppose nope bah..coz no one even bothered to tag...sobz..i m sad. Erm..lemme see..last week, was hectic bah..coz got roadshow at NUS..but it was realli thru that roadshow that made me realised something and i told myself that i will not want to work in retail ever...at least that's how i tink now bah. Erm..kinda sadden by that fact bah..but well, customers are always rite...right? And bosses are always right too, so employers are wrong??? Haiz..But something made me happy..hee..met the mushrooms on friday, went to jin tai gong..had xiao long bao and other chinese food..yummy..the food realli delicious..and i tink i gained half kg from that meal bah..coz after which, we went to far east then i had ice cream...shucks..actually wanted to go on diet de. Time realli flies, two more weeks and we will be back in sch again..itp will end. Erm..feel kind of sad lo..coz the colleagues realli nice..and realli learnt tons of stuff..like how to clean specs, then contact lens thingy,teach pple how to wear lenses..and learn to endure scolding from unreasonable pple..haha..Then ytd, April's Fool..didnt fool anyone this year, but kena bullied. Coz Mr Yap supposed to give me grade for the log book..den say want to give me F...and i was like...since u want give me F, then nvm lo..then he realli write down F...but of course he joking ba..coz is April's Fool day mah..then still give me my assignment..think die le la..even he noes i wont be able to complete it de...ask me questions about multifocal contact lens, tell me to draw the ray diagram..ask me about progent, describe the details. Then the worst is, he gave me a pair of specs..and ask me to go find the refractive index..omg..come on la boss..if i noe all this, i wont be studying Diploma in Optometry le rite? Then he say if i dunno, go ask chris ng..haha..but i m determined to find out myself..shall see how later bah..hee..two more weeks to end of attachment..cherish whatever you have now. Oh ya, just remembered, ytd went to watched Keeping Mom wif Mr yap and his two frens..didnt intend to tag along de..but somehow, wanted to ask him something, then ended up walking wif him to taka..but the movie realli made me realise that indeed, His way is not my way and why should we question about His way, fully knowing that He has the best plan for us???