Well..it's the end of 2005 le..realli wanna thank god for his grace and countless blessings this yr..Erm..let me see..the major ones that realli impacted me are, the killer patho test..which i managed to spot 11 out of 12 qns, which was why i managed to do well for pathology. Besides, i manage to get into syco , despite the fact that i practised the pieces one week before the audition..and my skills are simply average, if not worse. Next, i realli wanna thank god for this grp of friends who are constantly ard me, rain or shine. Thanks weiling, stella, dayne, huiting, yiwen, wenhao,yuhan, wenli, randall..and lots more..If not for u guys..perhaps i wouldnt have the courage to face certain things..and if not for the mushroom peeps, i tink i wouldnt have done well for my studies..muacks..Through this yr, i have experience god in a way, which i have never before..this experiece is..simply amazing...although i have also made lots of mistakes last yr, may i pray that my frens out there will be forgiving enuf k? Haha..last year has been a hectic but blessed year.. may i pray that the following year will be a meaningful year..haha, as for my new year resolution..i pray that i will be able to concentrate on the main thing, instead of being upset by small setbacks..and that i will be a more loving fren..haha..erm..last but not least..may his blessing pour down like rain in my life..and by his grace, all impossbile shall be done...

Haha..it has been a week since i have last blogged..this week has certainly been full of fun..realli enjoyed myself...On mon..where we went out to get ling's pressie and celebrated wif her..then tue..went back to sch do prac then after which, went to bt panjang plaza..sit there at 4pm, in the foodcourt to have breakfirst set..haha..then wed, went down to co camp..had practise..was kinda pissed off by someone..but well..forget it..then thur..went down for co camp again..haha..stayed till 10pm..then went home..friday..went down to sch to practise for lab..then went to victoria concert hall..wanting to register for my diploma exam..only to realised that the registeration date havent start yet..so wasted trip loh..haiz..then today, was mugging at home..trying hard to get the BV facts into my brain(which i tink is too small for so much info)..haha..then now here i m..online le..later i tink not gg out bah..coz veri tired le..shall stay at home and watch vcds and have junk food..hehe...wat a way to spend my last day of 2005...haha..happy new year..

Somehow, my heart seems to be rather heavy today...i keep wondering how's service at Hope church..i kept praying tht there will be new faces there..i kept praying that someone will come to know christ today..somebody's life will be changed by Him, life transforming..god, i pray that u will overlook all these things..that the lost sheeps will come back to the sheperd again..happy bdae, jesus..! Hee..

Guess what? It's xmas eve. Haha..didnt do much today, coz was pretty tired after the xmas party at vivian's house ytd..so wasnt in the mood to do anything. Then on top of that, i realised that my mp3 crack le..i mean the glass..kaoz..i tink someone might have dropped my bag when my mp3 was in it..sad...haiz..anyway, ytd, was pretty fun,haha..went back to sch to do cl prelim exam on yuan fang..she veri cute de..haha..then after which, went for last min xmas shopping at jp..and i came home..haha..finished up my gems quiz and clinical opt thingy..then went out to woodlands to meet yiwen..The xmas party hor..quite alot of pple dunno de..then was sitting there watching tv when huiting asked me to go play piano..haha..richard veri funny loh..he play flight of the bumble bee is use to fingers de..haha..Then later, perhaps gg to watch tv..hopefully got some nice shows..perhaps do some studying? haha..coz next week is gonna be a busy one..hope got time to study.. hehe..tata..and merry xmas..and lastly, may i pray that all of us here will find the real meaning of xmas..hehe..in the past, i thought that xmas was the bdae of santa claus..haha..and when i was older, i see xmas as a day where i will get lots of pressent..but ever since the day i noe Him..things were dif..haha..well..dun tok le..gtg..tata..

haha..one test down..had patho test today..so tired..coz only got 6 hrs of slp..haha..tomolo still got cl fitting test..almost fell aslp just now while studying for test on the bed just now..cant wait for tomolo to end..haha..nth much to blog..haha..shall go le..tata..

Feel like blogging one more entry..erm..ytd was realli supposed to be a happy day for me..after all, it's e-learning week next week, so saturday no need to study for any test..then got steamboat at nite..then got into syco..thought that i will be happy, but well, now not happy le leh..i wonder why is it that god is always making fun of me de..when i like this particular guy, then soon after that, he will be attached le..then the worse thing is tht i will have to face him often, meaning that i will see him and his gf often? Erm..not exactly that i m jealous lah..but somehow, just feel a bit sad loh...haha..then i msg wenhao..then guess what he told me? He said if u realli like the person, then u will feel happy that he found his happiness. I remember that i used to say that to other pple..but now when these happen to me, i cant seem to feel happy for that person...what to do? Haha..so tht's why i didnt manage to study much today, was stoning all the while...forget it..think too much oso no use..haha...tata...

Haiz..now no pple online de..either that, or that prefer to appear offline..haha..didnt do much at home, unless u consider slacking, eating and slping as doing something constructive. Erm..ytd, went to rebond my hair, thank god i dun look too hideous..haha..actually wanted to study while the hairdresser rebond my hair de..but in the end, chatted wif her..then didnt touch my books at all..haha..then at nite, went to xueling's house for steamboat..think i m gonna gain some weight again..haha..then the others started to gamble at her house..then i sian half le..so went home at ten plus..Today..woke up at eight plus..tried to study a bit of patho lah..haha..but usually, for me hor, lst time memorise that piece of information, sure cant get into the mind de..need to slp le, then can register those facts..so well, shall study again tomolo..haha..xmas coming, so happy..and so anticipating..ytd jorris msg me..mass sending again..haha..we had two converts ytd..praise god! Did i mention that ytd nite, after i came home from the steamboat, mom passed me a letter, from syco de..hehe..i got admitted into syco le!! Was quite happy for the lst few mins..then i thought of lennon..of what he said to me that nite..well..perhaps it's god's plan bah..as i open this new door, i shall close the door tightly behind me..Haiz..life's getting kinda stressed nowadays, so mood oso not veri good, then the gems online assignment is getting on my nerves loh..spent two hours plus then havent complete the assigment yet..kaoz..sian..haha..i hope that i have time for my studies as well as my music..dun wanna neglect either of them..

wow..time flies..it is thursday again..haha...realli thank god for all the good things that happened during this week..and all the things which appear to be bad. Was kinda feeling unlucky today, coz that patho test which i put in my heart to study, was postponed..so could realli imagine my disappointment when stella msg me at 11 plus to inform me about it. Well..before that, i woke up at seven plus to study for the patho test..and my sis was constantly getting on my nerves wif her conversation wif mom..after which, i proceed to go sch..then on to lrt station, the lift spoit..kaoz..then had to take the stairs. And when i reached sch, we went to the library lst..coz stella wanted to borrow a book. And i wanted to top up my e-printing account. But to my dismay, the machine spoil le..so couldnt..then after which, today had mr rajeev's lesson..and he took one hour of vivian's lesson and taught us calculations for RGP. Supposed to be good thing lah..but somehow, i was so mentally tired that i didnt realli bother to listen much..was realli unhappy for a moment that he always give makeup lesson and for five hours during the e learning week..on second thought, he is realli a hardworking teacher bah..coz he is not paid any OT but insist on bringing out the best in his work. Realli admire his attitude. Then after sch, went to JP with the mushroom peeps to JP..wanted to get somebody something de..then in the end, that person like dun seem to like anything..haha..and on the way home, god spoke to me, which realli struck me..i wondered why is it that whenever something bad happen, i dun take a second thought about it and look on the bright side of things. Why is it tat i dun seek Him and instead i grumble...realli feel ashame of my behaviour..and today, another thing that struck me was, things are not perfect in life coz if they are perfect, u will never appreciate it. As humans, we often take things for granted,dun we? Haha..indeed, as seen in the bible, u reap the wind and u will reap what u sow..just some personal thoughts bah..haha..tata...

Haha..today is the second entry of the day..it's not that i veri free..but somehow, my heart havent settle down to study yet..haha..shall study later bah..any way..mushrooms, sorry leh..i noe that i m overly sensitive sometimes..actually after bloggin the previous entry today, i was playing praise & worship songs in my room then god spoke to me..and reminded me of something..hee..shall not say what is it..then i realised that i shouldnt have behaved like that this morning..realli sorry..muacks... Anyway, didnt reall study much yet..stressed leh..haha..but i finally managed to learn guitar plucking today..praise god..!! hee..thought i will nv to even pluck a string..shall realli depend on god for everything..just like last sem..hee..gtg le..tata...

Actually was realli anticipating today..coz lst time gg sch to do prac..but well..somehow, some things realli made me feel so sad.. Everyone wants to feel loved and cherished..so do i..but y is it that it's not how i feel? To this veri particular group of friends out there..perhaps u tink dat i can take the joke, that's why u will give snide remarks like "who cares about u" or "i dun wanna sit wif her in class" or even "Huh!! How come i do practical wif u" Although u guys might be kidding when u say this..or perhaps u mean it..but have u guys given a thought about my feelings? Imagine if one day, someone u cherish as frens say these to u, how wil u feel? And sometimes, u guys tend to outcast me, and dun realise it. I realli cherish ur friendship and if this is what treatment i get, well, i have nothing to say le..

Haiz..actually wanted to study de..but hor..today my dad not working..then now he is at home, playing some cd where the songs do not belong to my era...and it is realli getting onto my nerves, especially when i havent been revising my work this week, due to the syco audition..kaoz..it has been an hour le loh..wonder what time he will stop..but nvm..shall learn to adapt to the environment..haha..was reading BV lecture just now..and was so stressed that i ate a scoop of ice cream wif oreo cookies and banana(yummy!!) Haha..so now, i m here bloggin...think i shall get back to my books in a while's time..opened my mail just now, stella sent me an e card..she is so sweet..haha..thanks dear.. Xmas is coming le..if i have time, i hope to make something for my frens..hehe..coz i tink that being able to make something for those pple whom u love, is the most fortunate..haha..but hopefully got time lah..if no time..then i tink..have to wait till next holiday le..haha..gtg..tata

Wow..it's been quite some time since i last blogged..erm..lemme see..msia was quite fun..because of the frens bah..haha..it has realli been quite some time since i last spend time wif my co frens. But the trip itself quite sianz..coz i realli feel like a pig back in msia..go there..eat..shopping..eat...slp...then wake up..eat again..then went for rehearsal..so tired siar...actually wanted to buy some things back for my family and frens de..but end up, there was practically nth much to buy..then reached home on sunday nite at ard eleven plus..then the next day in class..kaoz..so tired..practically drifting off in class..but thank god i survived thru..haha..so these whole week..havent been studying..coz go home then slp..haha..then wed had co, prac for pop concert songs..erm..the sheng veri $%^&*() de...cant play well wif that...then today is friday le..so fast, had practical in the morning..then today the drama appreciation so fun..hehe..after sch..went to co room, practise for tomolo's audition..actually not veri sure of myself oso..wondering whether i can do it..but well..shall just do my best..haha..tired le..shall go rest le..tata...