Haha...i just simply love christmas...but i realised that when i grow up...the feeling of christmas is no longer there...n this yr..well..it was kind of a lonely christmas bah...coz in the morning..i realised that i made a mistake..dun have service in the morning..hence, i went to jurong point to do some shopping..then while i was shopping, i msg yz to ask him whether he wants to come out...later we settled for 'meeting the fockers' together wif yq, zg and cc. haha..did i mention that cc had a veri cute haircut??? Nv seen him botak before..realli look quite cute...haha..but the movie was not that veri interesting...although it was kinda funny..but somehow..i didnt seem to enjoy it that much..perhaps becos of some other things on my mind..haha.. Erm..if u guys are wondering y i nv go out wif samuel...it's becos..well...we are no longer together...but at least we will still be frens.. Then on xmas eve...i went to bugis wif stella to buy weiling's bdae present...haha..then after that she had to leave early..coz she jia ren you yue...then leave me at bugis..haha..then i shopped along..actually intended to go orchard in the evening de..coz my church got celebration there..then decided against it..coz orchard sure got tons of pple de..so i asked my sis out to go shopping again...haha... then tonite got that keat hong concert at SCH...haha...long time nv see my ai tus le...miss them veri much...coz they went msia..then this yr..nobody to celebrate xmas wif me...sobz..haha.. haha...new yr coming le...still havent come up wif my new yr resolution...haha.well...so dun say i didnt blog...it's just that a bit lazy to blog lah..haha..happy boxing day...hohoho!!!~

As humans..we always tend to regret some of our decisions..sometimes i tell myself that it's no use regretting...n whatever that i have done...god has planned it all...but...i just cant help but ponder over whether what i have done was right...perhaps some things shouldnt have started...if it didnt start...it wouldnt have to end...and both parties would be happier..isnt it? I realli feel that we have our own lives and we shouldnt expect the other party to change becos of ur own self...that's downright selfish...and so perhaps it was my wishful thinking that everything would turn out fine..haha..if i didnt start it...life would be different..perhaps we would be happier??? It's hard to say...

Haha..today is victoria's bdae...but dun tink i will get to see her today..haha..erm...ytd had steamboat at marina bay to celebrate yz's bdae..but ytd realli set me to think about lots of things.. I realli dunno y..but humans..they always sought for the best..even when they have something that is good...they will not be satisfied..y is that so??? I realised that i nv learnt to treasure things..it is onli when they are gone..that i realised their existence...this is such a sad case? Isnt it??? Sometimes...i dunno y..but sorta feel tat i m not mature enuf to handle some things...haiz.. Btw did i mention about that interview ytd? Suckers....for my qualification...i can onli get 43% of the total fees for teaching in music sch..coz i have yet to get my grade 8 theory yet...then likdat...how to suport myself??? Wah kao..now i noe y music sch can survive loh..but on the other hand..if i m teaching at the teck whye branch..i dun mind that meansly pay lah..coz is near mah..but if they allocate me to somewhere in jurong...i might as well dun work loh..haiz..today seems to be in a grumpy mood..think i better stop b4 more vulgarities comes out...have a nice day...

haha...today woke up quite early...to prac piano..coz ard 3 days nv practise le...then quite tired..coz last nite was chatting online..then offline at ard 11 plus...the chinese orchestra competition is this week...all the best to the pple out there...and yin zhi is having his grading soon...good luck..=p Haha...bbco will oso be having the competition this thur..but funny leh..i m not a bit nervous...dunno y oso..haha..a bit heck care le loh..but i tink i will still put in all my effort de..haha.. Tonite they going marina for steamboat...to celebrate yin zhi's bdae...then b4 that i have to go for an interview at a music sch..intend to teach part time piano..haha..wish me luck..haha.. Erm..actually nothing much to blog now..coz oso a bit in a hurry...haha

Well, it's been quite a few days since i last blogged...erm...ytd went to taka wif weiling and li hua to purchase xmas cards...actually i oso dunno why we went dat far just to buy xmas cards...but since it's the holidays and we are so free...then might as well just do some window shopping...haha..but later on we realised that there isnt veri much to walk and the things there are so xpensive...not within the budget of polytechnic students..haha...then later chuan cheng and ar heng came...then we just sat at mac to chit chat...haha...held a gossip meeting..haha...then after that we went to tiong bahru for dinner...which was rather far to me...but samuel came along...so there was someone to accompany me hm...but was a bit car sick ytd...perhaps because not enuf slp...or ate too much...but i suppose was becoz chuan cheng mixed some of those leftover food and all the chilli sauce into a cup and tried drinking it...that realli makes me feel like puking..haha.. Then today actually was supposed to work..but too lazy..then woke up late..so didnt go to minimart...then in the afternoon...sam called..asking me whether i want to go ice skarting...which i rejected...coz i m realli afraid to injury myself...then in the late afternoon...i went to church...was my turn to be pianist for cell grp..then after cell grp went for dinner wif those church frens... Btw did i mention that i called that music sch this afternoon and i m having an interview next monday...realli hope that they will have a suitable timeslot for me to teach piano..haha..cant wait to start teaching....haha... Erm...actually i would oso like to apologise bah..felt that i was kinda having attitude problem these few days...coz actually these two days i had bbco practice..coz competition coming soon...but onli got one sheng...then i dun tink sharing the sheng would benefit either li sin or me...so i already skipped two sections..tink i will go to tomolo's practice bah..or mr lee will be quite unhappy about it..moreover i havent start to mermorise the score yet...haha...but seriously, i m rahter displeased that everytime when there is two sheng players and one sheng available, mr lee expects us to borrow the sheng ourself...and the last time during the bbco concert...i remember that i didnt get to have my own sheng till it was two or three weeks b4 the concert....but i suppose i wont be staying in orchestra for long bah...sincerely feel that there will be no future for me in chinese orchestra...dunno y either...and sometimes i tink that if i spend more time in my piano...i will reap more....haiz...

Well..haha...sometimes i realise that i can be rather pessimistic...perhaps that's my character bah...i used to think that since there is a beginning...there will be an end...till now, i still tink that it's true..but when something ends, it is the starting of another event...so perhaps...when some things come to an end..it's not such a bad thing either..but for some things...i hope that it will be eternal...haha...dunno y i suddenly toking about all these..haha..i tink i m not in a good state of mind lah..haha.. But today quite happy...went to my fren's house to bake cookies..erm..turns out quite good...tomolo i go co then bring for u guys to try, k?? Haha..dun worry..it is edible...i gave some to samuel just now...if he dun haf stomache by today...then i guess the cookies should be alrite..haha..jk...i tink i end here bah..tomolo is gonna be a long day..must conserve some energy..haha..nite...=p