From the beginning, i knew that perhaps it wasnt the right choice, but somehow, i didnt noe why i still go ahead wif the decision. I didnt see the picture as a whole, i fail to give up what was so insignicant for the sake of Him. I thought i noe what was the best, perhaps i didnt..i dunno whether i have done it rite..but one thing i m sure of: everyone makes mistake, i do too..i failed this test, this test of endurance..and i dunno what to do wif my life now...but i noe what i want..i wanna be walking right wif god...closer to him everyday..even if my life is filled wif all the things in the world, but it will not be complete without Him...i believe by faith that things will turn out right. For Adam sinned, disobeyed god, but god still forgave him. For Cain sinned, although the fellowship was broken, but the relationship remains..i pray that my disobedience will be forgiven, as i sincerely repent..life have to go on, if i continue brooding over the past, it will be useless..if i m fated to be back there again, i believe, he will bring me back there...