Jus feeling so tired that i could just drop dead...life is realli meaningless when u are trapped..isnt it? Just like a bird, born wif wings to fly, but is being kept inside a cage...haiz...this week..spco prac...realli veri tiring..then my mom dun like me to come hm late at nite..then she kept nagging loh..realli getting on my nerves..then now that i m sick..she blames me for keep going out..diaoz..i realli dun understand loh..moreover, i have already been sick since two days after exams..n it's now tat she realises it...haha..so funny..-.-''..anyway..then my caregrp stuff is oso at nite de..n it clashes wif my co prac..what to do leh? I noe tat eventually, i will have to give up one of them..n if realli given the choice to chose, well, guys out there..u noe what i will chose between orchestra and church rite? Haha...well..haiz..realli cant bear to put down what i have chosen to let go..but it will be better rite? Coz, since i cant commit my time to it..then why waste their time? Perhaps i will go there when i have time...it realli breaks my heart to just give up this..but what choice do i have? The time that i have spent in orchestra was like...four days a week in the past..n throughout the yrs, i have learnt the skills of what is required..n given my limited intelligence and musical talent(if there is any) well, it's not easy to pick up the skills...n now, i just have to give up like that? Well..it's like have to learnt piano for 8 yrs..n one day i meet wif an accident n i can no longer play piano anymore...it's just kinda sad..isnt it? Well...i tink i shall have a tok wif ll today, if i manage to see her today bah..dunno whether going co anot..realli down wif a bad throat and headache..shucks...