Erm..u suddenly came into my mind..n so i decided to write u something here..this is actually what i wanted to tell u long ago in the past..but well..just didnt tell u...perhaps u wouldnt be reading my blog..but well..i just wanna get this stuff off my chest..Erm..i noe that whenever u chid me or sth likdat, i noe that it's for the good of me..but somehow..i dun feel comfortable wif that..my character is in a way, where i m rebellious and i m prideful. That's y sometimes i show u attitude. .and i will sincerely like to apologise for that..and erm..another thing that i will like to tell u is that...sometimes..i realli cant attend some prayer meet or sth..is not that i dun want..is nt that i dont have the passion..but i have other things to consider..if i go hm late every nite..what will my parents think? When can i prac piano? When can there be time to revise hw? To tell the truth, i m stressed nt becoz of sch work but becoz of these church stuff...sometimes i realli feel like giving up..if not for the promise i made on the day i water baptised...I noe that i have my own committments outside of church thingy and i realli dunno how to organise my time le..sometimes..it realli saddens me..why u dun understand the predicament that i m in..although we are supposed to be the closest ...well..that's all i want to say..whether u will come across this entry anot..i leave it to god...