Just now, was online...then was toking to lay leng..then she asked if the four of us would like to go for the performance on August 15th...part of me want to go..coz i miss playing in orchestra..but hor..well..dun tink i should go bah..coz dun feel welcomed by the teacher..haha..But that time i promised lay leng that if co needs help, i would help, if it's within my means..haha..well guys..so what to do huh? Actually that time, i said that i no longer want to go back co becoz my whole heart is filled wif hatred of what that teacher said..but now thinking about it, well, i no longer hate him le..coz it isnt what a christian oughts to do..shall not go too much into details of what a christian ought to do..or not it will sound like preaching..haha..erm..back to the topic..Erm..so well, i noe that i wont have the time for committment in co since i have chosen to commit myself to church...then if that's the case, i can onli go back for practices when i m free..then i suppose the teacher wont be happy bah..coz who will be happy to have the members coming occasionally for practices onli..n if he is unhappy, he will comment about my attitude and stuff like that, which will certainly lead to more unhappiness..which is why i m hesitant about gg back..well..i guess i shall leave it to god bah..if he wants me to go back, then i shall..haha..shouldnt trouble myself over such stuff..