Happy v. day everyone..well..make it short and sweet..coz in a hurry..veri tired le..haha..just now..after sch..went to jurong point wif weiling, stella, dayne, ivan and wei kiat to watch movie..that 'i do i do'..haha..quite funny show..haha..then after that went hm...but well..didnt realli want to elaborate on what happened lah...coz nth much happened..haha..this is just another normal day for me..but during character development lesson today, that teacher let us see a movie..that is realli quite meaningful..was about a failed musician who later went to become a sch supervisor..then well..had lots of thoughts regarding that movie..realli set me thinking about what i want wif my life..well..i have thought about it le...i dun want fame or anything..i just want to make a difference in pple's life..i mean positive changes bah..having fame and fortune isnt what i realli want...but on the other hand...i felt that it's kind of contradicting..coz i was thinking of leaving co for good le..my thinking is that..well..after five yrs in co..not much accomplishment. Perhaps mr lee thinks i m not up to standard..or well..he rather give the chance to other pple. But either way..i know that he has his reasons..whether they are reasonable or not...well...actually i oso feel quite offended by what a fren said to me...shouldnt mention his name..And that same person commented that i do not express any feelings while i play piano...well..i already tried my best..n he still says tat..so i oso dunno whether to heed his advice or not..i must say that my playing is not perfect..n is just average bah..i suppose...but i m trying veri hard to juggle between piano..yang qin..sheng, studies, church and my frens...i onli have 24hrs..so how m i going to split my time? So..my decision is to leave..perhaps life will be a better place if i give up orchestra bah...in my opinion, it's a bottomless pit..no matter how much effort i put in it..i will nv accomplish much..not that i want fame..but i just want to reap what i sow..perhaps he dun feel that i deserve to reap anything..so if that's the case, i shall leave..end of story..so i think i shall start to mia in co le bah..haha..btw...i forgot to add that..nth's fair in life..sorry if this entry offends any of u out there...