Some of u guys may notice that when i m out if u guys, i may suddenly be quiet...dun worry...i m not undergoing menopause...haha...but look guys...i have got sth serious to tel u. I hope that what i have said below wont offend any of u guys out there...these are what i feel deep down in my heart and i hope u guys will understand... Actually i do not like to note down those unhappy events of my life..but sometimes it is not possible, isnt it?? Well...i do not want to pin point anybody or what...and the last thing i want to do is to offend anyone...but sometimes i hope that some of u guys out there will just spare a thought for me... I do get pretty uncomfortable when u guys say some things like i m lousy in sheng...i m downright lousy in yang qin or some other things like go away........ I know that most of the time u guys are kidding when u said all these..but when i m already feel sad and u guys say these...i cant help but feel offended...if u guys were in my shoes, u will certainly feel the same, rite? I can certainly take jokes..but to a certain extent..so i sincerely hope that the next time u guys want to say something demoralising, i hope that u realli mean it b4 u say..coz some jokes realli hurt me deeply, even if u dun mean it...To tell the truth, at times, those words made me feel realli worthless..and realli made me feel that i shouldnt be in orchestra...shouldnt be ard there...well..i think that's all i want to say..my sincere apology if i happen to offend someone wif what i have just said...